Films on Youtube, chapter 7

Chapter 7

BLAINE'S POV

The film started differently than all the others. Instead of singing it showed Kurt speaking in a pained voice. He was saying something emails, his dad and some condition.

I heard Wes beside me ask 'Condition? Was his dad ill or something?'

'Yes' answered Rachel 'He was comatose in the hospital after having a heart attack. Terrible times' she added with a shiver.

'Comatose?' I echoed quietly 'When was this?'

'About two months ago' replied Quinn, the pretty cheerleader. She then pressed play again.

When Kurt got to the part of his mother's funeral several New Direction kids had tears in their eyes. And when he started talking about squeezing his dad's hand, I felt a tear rolling down my cheek. I knew how much Kurt's dad meant to him. The boy was always talking about how great and understanding the man was. Even David and Wes had stopped fooling about and were listening intently.

The Kurt in the video was a Kurt I had never seen before. It was heartbreaking to see the usually composed and brave guy breaking down so much. He looked even worse than after Karofsky had kissed him and I thought that was really bad.

When the music started we all stared and listened as hard as we could. The song was much slower than the original version but it sounded really great. But I didn't have the strength to marvel at Kurt's voice. Even after the first line I realized that the song was sung with so much passion and love that it struck me to the core.

I always knew that Kurt loved singing but watching this I realized it was also something else. While singing he completely cut out the whole world. His expression was distant, as if remembering good times, good memories. Memories of his father, I'm guessing.

When the music sped up it changed the view and instead of Kurt showed the glee club. They looked almost the same as now. The cheerleaders all looked crushed. Rachel had tears in her eyes and was holding on to her boyfriend as if her life depended on it. Mercedes was looking at her best friend with awe and love. All the boys looked deeply shaken. Even their coach was looking stricken.

When the song stopped with Kurt wiping his eyes, the room fell silent. Gathering all my courage I whispered out:

'How bad was it with Kurt?'

'Really bad' answered Mercedes while everyone else nodded 'He stopped talking to everyone. Always had tears in his eyes. Wouldn't let us pray for his father. Sided with Sue Sylvester. Hell, he even stopped sing. That song was the first one he sang in 2 weeks!'

I nodded, not able to say anything. For Kurt not to sing, it had to be serious. Very serious.

My thoughts were interrupted by Wes asking 'By why wouldn't he let you pray for his father?'

The New Directions looked at each other before Rachel replied in a very soft tone 'Kurt… isn't exactly religious. To tell you the truth, I don't really blame him. If I had gone through as much as he had, then I think I wouldn't believe in God either'

'So he's not religious... That still doesn't explain why he wouldn't let you guys pray'

'Well, he was having a really hard time then. And we didn't even know about the bullying. And I think he just needed something to vent his anger out'

When Rachel finished explained the room fell quiet again. It seemed everyone was depressed about the song.

'And it wasn't as if we were good friends, either' admitted Mercedes 'Instead of being there for him and encouraging him, we were doing everything to make him believe in God.

I nodded not really listening. I couldn't help but be in deep awe about Kurt. The boy had been through so much in his life. First he had lost his mother, then the bullying, the unrequited love and now his father was in hospital in a coma. I'm sure I would be in deep depression after all of that. But that's the thing about Kurt. He really is one of the bravest people I have ever met.

My thoughts were interrupted with Wes and David talking out loud trying to loosen up the tension 'So, what's the next song?'

When Brittany read out 'Le Jazz Hot' I looked up. I absolutely loved that song. But who in the glee club was talented enough to sing it?